Mastering My Energy in a Difficult Season

Things are tough right now. Personally and collectively. This isn’t new but it does feel like things have been ramping up. There’s an intensity and speed to things lately and I’m feeling it more than i’d like to admit. And if I’m honest, old patterns have been resurfacing too—scarcity, overwhelm, the urge to shut down or check out.

Sometimes, I fall into it. I numb. I procrastinate. I lose focus. And that’s ok.

But something is different now. There’s awareness. A pause between what I feel… and what I choose next. And in that pause, I’m remembering something that feels essential:

It is up to me to hold my energy.

What do I mean by that? I mean not getting lost in the fear. Not letting grief consume me. Not letting the political shit show derail my sense of hope. It does not mean perfection. It does not mean constant positivity. And it definitely does not mean bypassing grief or fear. It means at any given moment, I have agency over my frequency. Full stop.

This is what “mastering my energy” looks like for me right now:

Feeling the grief…and still stepping outside to feel the sun on my face. Feeling the fear…and still choosing to move my body and shift the energy. Noticing the old stories…and gently choosing a different one.

It looks like remembering the tools I already have—meditation, journaling, movement, radical self-care, beauty, connection. Not as something I should do but as something I can return to again and again.

Because here’s what I’m learning: I can fall into the heaviness… or I can begin to lift. This isn’t about denying reality. It’s about choosing how I meet it.

There is grief in my life right now. There is uncertainty. There are moments of fear. And there is also breath. There is also beauty. There is also the ability to shift, even slightly.

This is the balance. This is the practice. If you’re walking through a heavy season right now, I want to offer you this:

You don’t have to bypass what you feel. But you also don’t have to stay there. You are allowed to feel it all. And you are allowed to rise. Maybe not all at once. Maybe not every moment. But in small, gentle ways. A breath. A step outside. A walk in nature. A different thought. A moment of gratitude.

These are not small things. They are how we change our state. They are how we come back to ourselves. They are how we begin to master our energy. And maybe that’s what this moment is asking of us. Not perfection. Not control. But awareness. Choice. And a willingness to return. Again and again.

You’re not alone in this. And you’re more powerful than you think.

This is The Radical Joy Project. I’m so glad you’re here.